My hubby has been in Pretoria for two months now and we have one month left till the move. Unfortunately he is not able to visit again until the move as we have to save money and plane tickets are very expensive over the weekends. I have realised that being a single mom with two children is incredibly hard. Not just on me but on Becca too. She really misses her dad and I know he misses her. Just going to the shop is a mission. I have to get three people (me included) dressed and in the car, not needing the loo, fed and watered between nap times, to the shop and back during shopping hours battling queues and a 4 year old that wants to buy everything she sees.
Becca has had to be so patient. When I'm busy with Laria I can't help her and she has to wait until I'm finished. The mad morning rush is the most difficult for me. Laria wants to breastfeed and Becca wants tea at the same time, then Becca wants me to help her get dressed and Laria doesn't want to be put down so there's generally one of them crying while I'm rushing to help, dress, feed the other one. And among the morning chaos I have to try drink my coffee, make lunches and get dressed. I end up stressed and frustrated with Becca for not being able to do everything herself and it's really not fair. I am so looking forward to staying at home in the mornings in Pretoria and having a relaxing morning with no rushing around. (at least until Becca starts school again)